Religion Project

Hola!!! Long time not blog….
So I’ve been totally stressing. Why you may ask? Because of school. Math c30 is totally winning in the game of me ever passing the class. And my English project is proving to be more work than I thought I could handle. We read a book called Life of Pi. Its main purpose I guess, from the author, was that it will make you believe in God. Personally I did not like the book at all, but for those of you who like books that make you wonder about religion, you should read it. So from that book came our English project. Now my school isn’t catholic, it’s a regular public school, but my teachers a free willy and open minded. Which isn’t a bad thing, because I am too. So there are like 9 groups and each group has to chose a religion to do a powerpoint on. There’s Unitarian, Judaism, B’hai, sik’hism, Buddism, Hinduism, Native American, Islam, Muslim and lastly Christianity. Now we all had to go to church or some kind of social function for the group we chose. We also needed to do an interview with a person on their choice of their religion. My group chose Christianity since no one else wanted to. I started going to church when I was like 3 and stopped a few years ago. Jesus and all that other stuff has never interested me but I know how people feel about their religion and how devoted they are, that I’ve learned to give them respect. I feel pressured though to choose something to believe in. its like I cant have an opinion of my own and I have to believe in something or forever be a “sinner”. But what truly makes someone a sinner? Ive met lots of people who have never done anything wrong I life but are very religious in any way. Are they going to be kept out of “heaven” because they didn’t believe, even though they havent done anything wrong. Is it really wrong to love someone so much that you choose to have sex with them even though they’re not married? And what happens for those who don’t get married but stay together for a life time? Is staying with someone you love and not get married to them not enough to get through to so called gates of heaven? I think theres too many rules to live by in order to get into a place that no one can truly prove exists. There is no room for error in a persons life and if there is one made you have to ask for forgiveness. How is a person supposed to learn if they cant make mistakes. Now theres a saying “whats the difference between a fool and a wiseman? A fool learns by their mistakes, a wiseman learns by others mistakes.” Now supposed if everyone followed the ways of the bible or any other religion out there, how would we learn anything. You cant expect to have life lessons with out someone making an example. I’m definitely one to make my own decisions on things and I don’t apologize for anything I do. I don’t like to be forced into believing in things either. But im not going to make someone feel bad for trying to have faith in something.
So how do people deal with the feeling that they have to believe in God or be punished for not doing so? Are there people out there who “believe” in a faith but secretly don’t want to? How does one feel about spirituality anyway? I’m very curious how some people deal with all of this…

Looove,
Tanis <3